things i don’t deserve

File all these things under “things I don’t deserve”:

1) inherited peony bushes that I never would have had the skill or patience to plant yet, they’ve been at every house we’ve moved to. I didn’t know I loved them until I saw them, I sometimes think God is after our smiles more than we think.

2)Penelope Nato: we weren’t supposed to still be married or have any more children after Layne and Lila — but what a sweet gift after rebuilding our marriage, then a miscarriage, and finally, our Broadway baby with enough sass and spunk to keep us on our toes. I didn’t know how much I needed her after all I had been through. Sometimes when it’s so hard for so long, you start to think you’ll never smile again. Penelope helped me remember to smile with my teeth like I mean it.

3) the lake view I didn’t know I would love till I did. As you know, I’m a reluctant lady of the lake , so I went into this like a grumpy cat— and yet God met me in my ungratefulness with undeserved Joy. I can’t tell you how many times staring at this view makes me remember how good God is to me and how he loves giving good gifts to his children. He is not aloof to our needs, the ones we don’t even know we have tucked away deep inside. If he is after giving us such detailed joys , how much greater does he care for our pressing needs and concerns. Do not believe the lie that he does not see you or care for you today. 🌺